A step to a new beginning

It’s been almost a week since I celebrated our relationship with our families. Yes! We exchanged rings last Sunday i.e. July 24, 2016 in our most beloved city, a city where we spent most amazing period of our lives (of course separately), a city which I love the most, a city where we first met and now became “life partners from being just friends”. What an amazing journey of life!

I still can’t believe that exactly a week back at this time I was on the way to our city with my family, with a lot of nervousness, enthusiasm, happiness, apprehensions and what not. I was in city after almost a year and felt that nothing has changed since my last visit. Pochu had already flown to the city and was thoroughly enjoying with his friends.

I didn’t care much about anything; but as the day progressed and Saturday evening started approaching night, my nervousness and apprehensions also started building up. I rang up Pochu and spoke to my heart’s content. He asked me, “are you nervous?” and I responded, “not yet!! May be tomorrow when I will see all our families, relatives and a lot of crowd!”.

The next morning when I reached to Parlor to get ready, it was then that I finally realized that yes, something big is going to happen. I was super apprehensive and nervous about my looks and attire. I had never been so dressed up before. The heavy make-up, saree, jewelries, bunches of hair-pins tucked in my head were making me go crazy and adding fuel to fire was the sultry weather and constant calls from my father to come soon to the venue as Pochu’s family had already arrived and were all eagerly waiting for me to come. It was a tiresome exercise to sit in the car after coming down from parlor, I was clueless as how should I place myself in car without damaging my saree. The sweet noise of bangles were also making me nervous. Finally with lot of efforts I managed to sit in the car and headed to the venue.

 

My brother was supposed to receive me at the venue and take me upstairs to the room as allotted. The moment he saw me, he gave a teasing look and comment which added to my nervousness… these kiddos!!! 😞 My Mother-in-law soon arrived and took me to the function hall. With every step, my heart was beating fast, and as soon as I reached the doorstep of the hall, I saw huge crowd sitting and every head turned towards me and gave smile. I was super nervous L. I was trying looking for Pochu. And when I found him I couldn’t gave a direct look as everybody was looking at me. My MIL introduced me to her side of family members and finally I was made to sit.

After lil chit-chat with relatives and friends, the rituals started. First some rituals were performed with him and then me and later with both of us. While he was sitting and performing rituals, every moment we spent together was flashing in front of my eyes. From back to back movies to roaming around, to teasing and listening to each other’s crap to his proposal and finally sitting in this hall.

While we completed our rituals together and were thinking what next… all of a sudden the Pundit Ji asked us to exchange rings! And that’s it!! I froze!! I couldn’t believe that this will happen so soon and abruptly. But it happened and was the most beautiful moment. Everybody around us came closer and started capturing those beautiful moments which again made me go nervous. I had never experienced such attention except my Training Classes 😉

And finally… we were engaged! We became one!

The most important thing for me was that my whole family was very happy and content. Not just my parents and siblings but also my extended family. And so was his family. My Mom met him for the first time and I’m glad that she liked him.

Thankkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk you God!! A bigggggggggggggggggggg thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu for everything😘

After we came back, the first thing on our minds was to catch up. He came to meet me the very next day he reached Bangalore and the moment I was him from a distance, I felt so content and happy. When I reached to him and held his hand, it was completely a different experience. It was more rightful, it was more authoritative, it was more complete. Actually I can’t really explain the feeling but it just felt awesomeeeeeeee!

Thank you almighty for your blessings!

Random Musings

Life is so uncertain, undetermined. It’s like a river which will keep flowing but you really can’t predict or determine its way. On its way it takes you to different paths and directions giving you all sorts of experiences. It’s so strange when you get what you were longing for and then you ask yourself- what next? With Pochu coming in my life and now finally settling down with him, the inner self asks me- what next? Touchwood for everything good now happening in my life… I’m at a comfortable and content stage of my life, settled professionally in a city of my choice, marrying a person whom I wanted; parents are finally content on my part. What else one could wish for… but still this is not the end of my chase, my journey. Need to identify a new chase, a new goal. A new life is waiting with its arms wide open. A new set of parents, a new family and loads of responsibilities. It might seem very normal to anyone reading this or anyone else, but it’s really a life stirring experience for anyone experiencing it for the first time.

Wedding comes with its own share of new experiences, responsibilities, teachings. Spending your whole life with a new person, yes, a new person; it doesn’t matter if you have known that person before, but knowing the person inside out and then living with the same person 24/7 is completely new and different experience. We both know each other from almost 7 years now. But it’s this time that we have really started knowing and “understanding” each other. We had and still have disagreements, fights, arguments, but at the end of it, it really helps both of us in exploring each other. Our relationship will become official in a matter of 23 days and I really can’t think of it. How life is going to change, how I’m gonna face my parents standing beside him, his family, our extended families. It will be normal and regular phenomena for them but for us it’s a life changing occasion.

Does this really happen? Does wedding makes you more responsible? It has happened, I’ve experienced it. When I skip my meals, I don’t bother about it much but when he does the same, I become a different person, interrogating and reprimanding him. When you have someone in your life and importantly when you are very sure about him/her, it does changes you for good J With a bitter experience in past, when I see my parents accepting Pochu and his family whole heartedly, I feel on top of this world, I feel so content and happy. This happiness can’t be compared to the happiness what I had with my ex. It’s an altogether different feeling. I’m feeling guilty, I keep mentioning and comparing my happiness with my past which I really shouldn’t do. There is no comparison, that was a phase of my life where that happiness was different and my present happiness is different. I do understand this fact, but unknowingly, I end up mentioning about it which I as well as my mom and friends feel, is really wrong. I think I should strictly stop doing this to secure and save my present and future from the dark shadows of my past.