Now that i had set a NO PDE (Public Display of Emotions) rule for myself yesterday, i tried to stick to that today. There were few occasions where i felt, i had breached the rule and just to register them in my thoughts, i’m outlining them here:
Breach of Rule: Incident 1: I had a very stressful day since morning. i was all sulked and that was quite evident on my face and through my body language. Reasons were various- was missing him, behaviour and attitude of my boss, client, my stressful job, the unplanned and chaotic plans of execution framed by my boss and many others. There were times when i almost broke down, with tears in eyes, i tried to control my emotions. Couple of colleagues even came to my cubicle asking what had happened to me; which made me to realize that even this is PDE (Public Display of Emotions) which i should avoid.
Incident 2: I’m getting a feel of re-emerging of my sinusitis from previous couple of days which also acted as fuel to fire to my state of being sulky. I wished and vowed not to share this with my boss and manager but, with progressing day and during a chit-chat i happened to tell this to both of them and as expected my boss came up with solutions and medication prescriptions, which i hardly wanted.
So these are the two instance of me breaching the rules. I will try not to repeat them in coming days.
I have also decided:
1. not to take too much of stress pertaining to work related issues, personal life and about HIM
I know, i cant get him back at least in this life, so there is no point thinking about him, but i’m helpless.. 😦 somehow, i have started missing him again.
Also, if you could share your experiences of NO PDE.
I will probably try to catch up some sleep now.